This isn't where I parked my car?!?!

Writer's Block: Have a drink on me
theevilnarwhale
If you were going to make a signature drink that was named after you, what would you put in it?

If I was going to make a signature drink named after myself, it would be a nice half pint of yuengling with a jim beam shot dropped in and chugged. Sounds great to me right now.

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theevilnarwhale
I'm a panic bomb baby.

Well now
theevilnarwhale
I seriously wonder how I  would react to my present self a year ago. I don't think I could possibly do it. The places I've been, the things I've done, the changes I've made in life, and the people I've met (and re-met). May to May I'd say was one of the best 12 months of my life.

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theevilnarwhale
It gets loneliest at night.
Down at the liquor store.
Beneath the neon sky.
Our moonlight.
Six A.M., the floor comes alive with lice.
The pan's dried up so tight.
With hardened beans.
We're hungry.
So I lean on you sometimes.
Just to see you're still there.
Your feet can't take the weight of one.
Much less two.
We hit concrete.

How were we born into this mess?
I know I painted you a prettier picture, baby.
But we were run out on a rail.
Fell from the wagon to the night train.

I kissed the bottle.
I should've been kissing you.
You wake up to an empty night.
With tears for two.

Cigarettes they fill the gaps.
In our empty days.
In our broken teeth.
We're jonesing.
Say mister, can you spare a dime?
Some change could make a change.
Could buy some time.
Some freedom.
Or an ear to hear my story.
It's all I've got. My fiction
beats the hell out of my truth.
A palm upturned burnt blue.
Don't call it sunburn.

You've been shaking on the job.
Just one drink ahead of your past.
There's a white light coming up.
You draw the blinds hoping it'll pass.

I kissed the bottle.
I should've been kissing you.
You wake up to an empty night.
With tears for two.

I kissed the bottle.
I should've been kissing you.
You wake up to an empty night.
With tears for two.

I kissed the bottle.
I should've been kissing you.
You wake up to an empty night.
With tears for two.




I'm in love with this song. The original song by Jawbreaker is one of the most depressing songs ever, however the cover by Lucero makes it sound happy. I really love a good cover.

Time
theevilnarwhale
A bottle of whiskey, a few days, and talking with old friends will make everything alright.

So long.
theevilnarwhale
But it never seems to get warmer.
No matter how far south you go.
It'll get too hot in the summer
And the sweat'll soak right through your clothes.
And you'll feel self-conscious and awkward
And the feeling stays with you all day
Until you go and put on a new t-shirt and throw that old one away.

Sometimes you just wake up and know the day is going to go where you don't want it to. But I would not trade what I got out of it for the world. I enjoyed my time with her and she enjoyed her time with me. It just was not meant to be. Take care Denise. I know we will still be great friends.

overwhelmed
theevilnarwhale
is what I am feeling. So much has been going on. Leaving Tampa for who knows how long, leaving Denise for 5 months, saying good bye to friends, going to Wyoming for the summer, and so much more.
Tampa has been my home for the last four years. Its been good to me. But it feels like I need to get a move on. I feel stagnated and nothing ever changes here. Also I need to figure out where all my stuff is going and how to get it there.
Things with Denise have been nothing but fantastic. I think she feels the same way. But I couldn't ask someone I've dated for such a short time  to wait 5 months for me to come back. We see each other rarely as it is. What do you do in that situation?
I realized that I'm not going to see a lot of these people I've grown to love again. Everyone is scattering. Its the end of an era.
Wyoming should be fantastic and I am looking forward to another summer with Christopher Miller. I know I will definitely get homesick like hell because I'll have no reminders of Florida with me this time. or really anywhere to come back to.
Life is a bastard.

Not exactly sure why I am here
theevilnarwhale
Guess I just need to rant a little where it won't be seen by many. Why is there no other word between like and love? After spending so much time with one person and it being nothing short of amazing like seems like a silly thing to say, while only dating for 3 weeks makes it a little early to say love. My thoughts are awash with feelings. It was definitely weird  on Sunday being alone for the first time in 10 days. Wished I was still on top of that mountain drinking a beer and eating cheese with crackers.

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theevilnarwhale
it has been 6 months since i started going out with adi. and they have been great. i probably wont update here much anymore because livejournal seems dead. no one else really updates anymore and i hardly check here. if you are looking for me check http://blog.myspace.com/theevilnarwhale . drop a message. i like to geton that at work. anywho i took adi out to dinner on tuesday and it was great. i feel like i could be with that girl for the rest of my life just because things are so great. half of you are going to leave comments on here calling me an emo bitch for that. oh well. fuck it. im happy, thats all i care about. im graduated. going to europe soon. college is coming. life has started friends...

note to self
theevilnarwhale
not having a car leads to a hell of alot of boredom. booooooooooooreeeeeeeeeed. and there was nascar on instead of family guy. kill me. atleast i got to see adi on saturday.

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